Well hello there! I'm still here and finally back to my joy and passion, crafting! Before I can fully come back, I felt like I needed to just get it out there and talk about where I've been. I don't think many people care (being completing honest here) but I just felt like I needed to say it to help me move forward.
I got divorced. Which obviously turned my life completely upside down.
I finally realized I hadn't been happy for quite some time and instead of really dealing with it, I just kept smiling through it hoping it would get better. Let me stop for a second and be very clear. My ex-husband did nothing wrong. He didn't abuse me in any way, shape or form. He didn't cheat on me or anything in that realm. He took care of me to the best of his ability. He loved me with all his heart. And unfortunately, I couldn't love him back the same way. We are just two people that aren't life partners no matter how much we both tried. And to him or anyone that knows him and reads this, I truly am sorry that I couldn't love him the same way he loved me. I'm not perfect, but I do wish I could go back in time, see the signs and try to avoid the hurt I caused by pretending everything was okay. I don't want to get too much into everything other than that but I just wanted to explain where I have been, what's been going on and why I kind of dropped off the face of the earth :)
I honestly don't know why exactly I felt like I needed to address it but I just don't feel like I can truly get back to LMC until I talk about what's been happening the last year.
Now the exciting news is that I've started putting myself first. I'm living my life for me and no one else. Which is kind of scary sometimes. But also the most freeing feeling I've ever experienced in my entire life. I no longer judge myself for every little thing. I no longer agonize over every thing I'm doing. I take it day by day and just work through everything the best I can. And I moved so new craft room tour coming soon-ish ;)
All in all, I'm so so so ready to get back to LMC and just crafting in general. It is truly my passion and I am so excited to get back in the swing of things. So what can you expect from me going forward? I'm going to TRY to commit to a new video and project every Saturday. But I'm also going to allow myself time to not have to stick to the schedule 100% of the time. Again, this new me is all about doing what I want when I want to do it!
Okay enough deep emotional stuff for now. Just know, if you're in a situation where deep down it just doesn't feel right, listen to that feeling and do what's best for you. Even if its scary and you don't know how things are goin to turn out. At least you can always say you tried and have no regrets! And when you smile, make sure it's genuine and not just a smile to cover something else up :)